A Journey Through Grief
As the title says, this is just a PROLOGUE to this new series. This was originally supposed to be part 1 but as I started to write it, I realized it was focusing more about the build up to the actual story rather than the story itself. So I decided to release this as a separate story, and have the story kick off where I wanted it to in part 1. There isn't much to get you turned on here, so don't get mad, I warned you. I hope you give this series a chance though, because the next installments will have a lot more action. If you've read my Nick and Allie stories, you'll know that I focus a lot on plot, and I want to make this series more of a turn-on series. Anyways, I'm rambling. Votes and comments are always appreciated. If you want to send me an email, I'm always more than happy to receive them: onenineninethreeasstr@gmail.com Like they say, feedback is the only payment sex story writers get.
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The New Life (Prologue)
Chapter One
Mikael, a 35 year old man, witnessed his wife lose her fight with cancer last week. She had been battling it for the better half of a year. Those 8 months were the worst of Mikael's life. The worst part was having to explain to his 8 year old daughter that her mom was never going to be the same. When she was first diagnosed the doctor said it would be a miracle if she lived past 3 months. Not much of a miracle.
They had the funeral ceremony two days ago. All of her friends, family and coworkers were there. Mikael cried himself to sleep before the funeral, but he managed to keep calm during the event. Jamie, his daughter, bawled like a baby at the start of it, clinching onto Mikael for dear life. It was the worst day of Mikael's life, and he knew it was the worst day of Jamie's life too.
It didn't help that Michelle's family hated his guts. Mikael was never able to get along with any of them. He married Michelle when they were both 19, rebelling against Michelle's parents' wishes. Michelle didn't talk to her parents for about 3 years, and after they made up, their relationship was shaky.
When Jamie was born, her parents barely gave 2 shits. They visited her in the hospital and had them over for a few holidays over the years but as far as Mikael was concerned, Jamie had no grandparents. Mikael didn't know his parents either. His mom's first husband died in the war. She went into a depression for a little while and started using drugs heavily. It was the 70's, everyone partied. Her drugs led to orgies and that led to a pregnancy. She had no idea who the father was, the night she got pregnant, she took countless loads in all her holes, and it could have been anyone at the party. It could have even been the 16 year old kid.
Her first thought was to have an abortion but her friends talked her out of it. They told her giving the kid away to an orphanage was a much better idea. So that's what happened, Mikael was born and given away on the same night. The only reason Mikael knew all this was because when he was 25, Michelle convinced him to try and track down his parents. He met up with his mom and after a few hours, knew the whole story. That was more or less, the only time he talked to her in person.
Michelle was everything. She was the only person in the world that could make him happy any time anywhere, no matter what. Now she was gone. The only reminder he had of her was his daughter Jamie. Mikael was a police officer, and had been for the past 15 years. When he and Michelle got married, he was in the academy still in school. Once he graduated, Michelle couldn't be happier. They moved into a bigger apartment and started their life. Michelle wanted to have a kid almost right away but Mikael wanted to travel a bit, experience more things in life than just settling down and having a kid.
Michelle, being the supportive amazing wife she was, agreed that they were too young for that kind of responsibility anyways. Michelle got her diploma in Chemical Engineering soon afterwards and with a nice amount of money in their bank account, the two started travelling a bit.
They went to Australia, Europe, South America; it was some of the best times of Mikael's life. Michelle knew everything about her husband and Mikael knew everything about his wife, or so at least it appeared that way. Mikael was hiding one thing from his wife, one very dark secret that he was sure to never let Michelle find out. He didn't like the word pedophile, but he fit the definition of it to a degree. He was attracted to preteen girls.
When they travelled to Brazil, Mikael did something he would come to regret a thousand times. He cheated on his wife. They were young, Mikael was only 21 and well shit happens. Michelle was asleep in their hotel and Mikael wanted to go out and walk around the streets of Brazil a bit, since he wasn't tired.
He ended up on a bad street, with hookers and prostitutes approaching him every step of the way. Being the nice guy he is, Mikael kindly turned them all down. It wasn't until he saw one girl that he stopped in his tracks. She must've been 12 years old but had the greatest little ass he had ever seen. She was wearing a cute skirt that barely covered her crotch and a top that exposed her budding breasts. She was a bit chubby, but still really cute.
Apparently she was with her sister because one of the girls that had asked Mikael if he was interested came up to him and told him. She told him the price and Mikael was very puzzled about what to do. He wanted to say no, he wanted to run away back to his safe warm bed beside Michelle, but he couldn't. Seeing the girl had released a demon inside him and the only way to tame him was to give him what he wanted. Right now the demon wanted the little girl around his dick.
The older prostitute told him the price and before Mikael could stop himself, he was walking behind the two sisters towards one of the motels Michelle and Mikael had seen when they first came. When they got to the motel, Mikael paid the sister and she led them into one of the bedrooms. The little girl didn't speak English and her sister only knew a few words that were relevant to her profession.
Mikael was so scared while getting stripped by the older girl, watching the 12 year old laying on the bed, teasing her pussy, guilt and nervousness going through him. She had her skirt hiked up, she wore no panties and Mikael couldn't take his eyes off her. She had dark black hair that only went to her shoulders, and that same black hair could be seen on her pubes.
Her dark skin made her look simply gorgeous but what made Mikael's dick leak pre cum into his boxers was when she turned onto her hands and knees and wiggled her Brazilian ass at him. If you were to just look at her ass, you would swear the girl was at least 17 or 18 but everything else about the girl had the features of a little girl.
When Mikael thought back on that night now, it was like a fog went over him. He remembered getting completely naked and walking over to the bed where the girl waited in the doggy style position. He remembered penetrating her for the first time and fucking her for a few moments but after that, he drew a blank. Fleeting images of him cumming on the girls face, than walking back to his hotel in shame was all he remembered past that first penetration.
It was very late when he came back into his room. He decided to shower and then went laid down next to his wife, snuggling her till very late in the morning. That was all the cheating Mikael had ever done on his wife, but over the years, he hated himself for it.
The demon inside him that woke up that night in Brazil didn't go away over the years. He never fucked or touched another girl but he did fantasize about it. When he turned 24, a new man joined his police force, Jack. They clicked instantly, and Mikael took Michelle to Jack's barbeques quite a few times. Jack was a great guy, recently divorced, no kids. When they first met, what Mikael didn't know was that Jack had the same demon inside him too.
It was about 6 months after Jack started working with Mikael that Jack opened up to him. They were out for a drink in a bar and with the beers flowing, Mikael decided to ask about Jack's divorce. Jack was only a few years older than Mikael, 27 to be exact, and Mikael was curious as to why his marriage failed. He could never see himself leaving Michelle.
Jack opened up about how he had fights with his wife all the time but what ultimately broke them apart was that she wanted kids and he didn't. This scared Mikael, Michelle wanted kids but he didn't want any, at least not for a few more years. Mikael asked why Jack didn't want kids and Jack started hesitating, trying to change the subject subtly by pretending to care about the football game on the TV.
They had become close friends and after a few more beers, Mikael was able to get Jack to open up. Jack tried beating around the bush as long as possible, saying how he had this weird obsession with 18 year old girls, that slowly turned into high school girls, which then became 13 year old girls. Mikael was in utter shock. Jack then started to get scared, they were cops after all. He begged Mikael not to tell anyone before taking off.
Over the next few weeks, Mikael did his best to get more information out of Jack but Jack refused to talk about it. Mikael knew there was only one way to get Jack to open up to him. It was nice to know that there was someone that shared his sick obsession with him and Mikael decided it was time to come clean as well.
Mikael told Jack that he wasn't disgusted by Jack and that he didn't judge him for what he liked. Mikael didn't tell him about Brazil, that was something he was gonna take to the grave but he told him that he fantasized about the same stuff. Mikael told him that he jerked off to porn sometimes, not actual child porn since Mikael had never gone onto any of those sites, being a cop and all, but he did have a folder full of pictures of girls that looked clearly under 18. He got the pictures from totally legit and legal sites, and wondered how they were even posted without getting taken down.
Most did get taken down, but that 1 or 2 day period between getting posted and getting taken down was when Mikael saved them to his computer. Jack was stunned but glad that someone finally understood him. Jack told him that was the reason he never wanted kids. He didn't trust himself enough not to act on his urges, especially when his daughter got older and started being more provocative.
When he told his wife about his desires, she instantly filed for divorce, calling him a pedophile. Jack had his own personal collection on his laptop which he jerked off too late at night when his wife had gone to bed. Just like Mikael, he had pictures of 13, 14, and 15 year old girls he had managed to find on the internet over the years. Ever since their confessions, Mikael and Jack tried to stay away from the topic, it was like they were both ashamed and didn't feel comfortable discussing it.
As the years went by, Jack and Mikael continued not to bring up the topic besides a conversation here or there while at the bar. Jack started to date and had a pretty serious relationship for a while but never got remarried. Meanwhile, Mikael finally felt ready to have kids and when he told Michelle she jumped on him hugging him like it was the first time she saw him.
When Mikael was 27, he and Michelle finally had a baby, Jamie. Unlike Jack, Mikael wasn't scared on acting on his urges; he wasn't attracted to girls that young, he liked the ones approaching their teen years. Jamie grew older and Mikael started to jerk off less and less to his secret stash of porn. He was a father now, with more responsibilities, he couldn't act like a 21 year old anymore. Jack got transferred to another department shortly after and Mikael started seeing less of him.
He would still get invited to his barbeques and parties, where they would catch up, but they weren't close friends. Jack and his girlfriend of 2 years broke up and Jack stayed single for a long time after that. Even though he would never admit it, Mikael figured that he was planning to propose sometime soon. As Jamie started growing older, Mikael didn't like bringing Michelle and Jamie around Jack. This was because of the company picnic one day in the summer, just months before Michelle got diagnosed.
Mikael, Michelle and Jamie were at the picnic as well as Jack. The other cops that Mikael worked with were there too and most of them brought their families. Everything was fine, Mikael was talking to Jack while Michelle was standing far away not to hear her husband talking. She was having a conversation with one of the other wives. Mikael and Jack were doing their usual thing, catching each other up on the other's life.
At one point, Jamie ran up to her dad and asked him for some money to buy some random crap, and Mikael gave her a few dollars. She hugged him around the waist, her face on his stomach and then ran off. As she ran off, Mikael looked at Jack and noticed his eyes were wandering a bit too much. It was clear he was checking out her ass and even though Mikael didn't say anything about it, it really pissed him off. After that incident, Mikael started paying more attention to Jack, and noticed that it wasn't just Jamie he looked at, but he stared a bit too long at every girl that walked past him. Maybe Jack was right; he really shouldn't be trusted with having kids.
If Mikael didn't want Michelle and Jamie around Jack anymore, his wish soon came true when Michelle got diagnosed with cancer. She was in very bad condition for most of her remaining months and Mikael didn't feel like going to stupid parties with his wife slowly dying in the hospital. At first, Jamie didn't understand what was happening to her mom but as the months went on, Jamie became more aware of the situation. She had never thought of death before then and now she was watching her mother slowly dying.
Weeks before Michelle passed away, Mikael didn't let Jamie into the hospital room to see her. Michelle was no longer herself, she looked like a skeleton at this point and even though Mikael didn't want to admit it to himself, she scared even him now. He could only imagine what it would do to Jamie to see her mom like that. Near THE END
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The New Life (Prologue)
Chapter One
Mikael, a 35 year old man, witnessed his wife lose her fight with cancer last week. She had been battling it for the better half of a year. Those 8 months were the worst of Mikael's life. The worst part was having to explain to his 8 year old daughter that her mom was never going to be the same. When she was first diagnosed the doctor said it would be a miracle if she lived past 3 months. Not much of a miracle.
They had the funeral ceremony two days ago. All of her friends, family and coworkers were there. Mikael cried himself to sleep before the funeral, but he managed to keep calm during the event. Jamie, his daughter, bawled like a baby at the start of it, clinching onto Mikael for dear life. It was the worst day of Mikael's life, and he knew it was the worst day of Jamie's life too.
It didn't help that Michelle's family hated his guts. Mikael was never able to get along with any of them. He married Michelle when they were both 19, rebelling against Michelle's parents' wishes. Michelle didn't talk to her parents for about 3 years, and after they made up, their relationship was shaky.
When Jamie was born, her parents barely gave 2 shits. They visited her in the hospital and had them over for a few holidays over the years but as far as Mikael was concerned, Jamie had no grandparents. Mikael didn't know his parents either. His mom's first husband died in the war. She went into a depression for a little while and started using drugs heavily. It was the 70's, everyone partied. Her drugs led to orgies and that led to a pregnancy. She had no idea who the father was, the night she got pregnant, she took countless loads in all her holes, and it could have been anyone at the party. It could have even been the 16 year old kid.
Her first thought was to have an abortion but her friends talked her out of it. They told her giving the kid away to an orphanage was a much better idea. So that's what happened, Mikael was born and given away on the same night. The only reason Mikael knew all this was because when he was 25, Michelle convinced him to try and track down his parents. He met up with his mom and after a few hours, knew the whole story. That was more or less, the only time he talked to her in person.
Michelle was everything. She was the only person in the world that could make him happy any time anywhere, no matter what. Now she was gone. The only reminder he had of her was his daughter Jamie. Mikael was a police officer, and had been for the past 15 years. When he and Michelle got married, he was in the academy still in school. Once he graduated, Michelle couldn't be happier. They moved into a bigger apartment and started their life. Michelle wanted to have a kid almost right away but Mikael wanted to travel a bit, experience more things in life than just settling down and having a kid.
Michelle, being the supportive amazing wife she was, agreed that they were too young for that kind of responsibility anyways. Michelle got her diploma in Chemical Engineering soon afterwards and with a nice amount of money in their bank account, the two started travelling a bit.
They went to Australia, Europe, South America; it was some of the best times of Mikael's life. Michelle knew everything about her husband and Mikael knew everything about his wife, or so at least it appeared that way. Mikael was hiding one thing from his wife, one very dark secret that he was sure to never let Michelle find out. He didn't like the word pedophile, but he fit the definition of it to a degree. He was attracted to preteen girls.
When they travelled to Brazil, Mikael did something he would come to regret a thousand times. He cheated on his wife. They were young, Mikael was only 21 and well shit happens. Michelle was asleep in their hotel and Mikael wanted to go out and walk around the streets of Brazil a bit, since he wasn't tired.
He ended up on a bad street, with hookers and prostitutes approaching him every step of the way. Being the nice guy he is, Mikael kindly turned them all down. It wasn't until he saw one girl that he stopped in his tracks. She must've been 12 years old but had the greatest little ass he had ever seen. She was wearing a cute skirt that barely covered her crotch and a top that exposed her budding breasts. She was a bit chubby, but still really cute.
Apparently she was with her sister because one of the girls that had asked Mikael if he was interested came up to him and told him. She told him the price and Mikael was very puzzled about what to do. He wanted to say no, he wanted to run away back to his safe warm bed beside Michelle, but he couldn't. Seeing the girl had released a demon inside him and the only way to tame him was to give him what he wanted. Right now the demon wanted the little girl around his dick.
The older prostitute told him the price and before Mikael could stop himself, he was walking behind the two sisters towards one of the motels Michelle and Mikael had seen when they first came. When they got to the motel, Mikael paid the sister and she led them into one of the bedrooms. The little girl didn't speak English and her sister only knew a few words that were relevant to her profession.
Mikael was so scared while getting stripped by the older girl, watching the 12 year old laying on the bed, teasing her pussy, guilt and nervousness going through him. She had her skirt hiked up, she wore no panties and Mikael couldn't take his eyes off her. She had dark black hair that only went to her shoulders, and that same black hair could be seen on her pubes.
Her dark skin made her look simply gorgeous but what made Mikael's dick leak pre cum into his boxers was when she turned onto her hands and knees and wiggled her Brazilian ass at him. If you were to just look at her ass, you would swear the girl was at least 17 or 18 but everything else about the girl had the features of a little girl.
When Mikael thought back on that night now, it was like a fog went over him. He remembered getting completely naked and walking over to the bed where the girl waited in the doggy style position. He remembered penetrating her for the first time and fucking her for a few moments but after that, he drew a blank. Fleeting images of him cumming on the girls face, than walking back to his hotel in shame was all he remembered past that first penetration.
It was very late when he came back into his room. He decided to shower and then went laid down next to his wife, snuggling her till very late in the morning. That was all the cheating Mikael had ever done on his wife, but over the years, he hated himself for it.
The demon inside him that woke up that night in Brazil didn't go away over the years. He never fucked or touched another girl but he did fantasize about it. When he turned 24, a new man joined his police force, Jack. They clicked instantly, and Mikael took Michelle to Jack's barbeques quite a few times. Jack was a great guy, recently divorced, no kids. When they first met, what Mikael didn't know was that Jack had the same demon inside him too.
It was about 6 months after Jack started working with Mikael that Jack opened up to him. They were out for a drink in a bar and with the beers flowing, Mikael decided to ask about Jack's divorce. Jack was only a few years older than Mikael, 27 to be exact, and Mikael was curious as to why his marriage failed. He could never see himself leaving Michelle.
Jack opened up about how he had fights with his wife all the time but what ultimately broke them apart was that she wanted kids and he didn't. This scared Mikael, Michelle wanted kids but he didn't want any, at least not for a few more years. Mikael asked why Jack didn't want kids and Jack started hesitating, trying to change the subject subtly by pretending to care about the football game on the TV.
They had become close friends and after a few more beers, Mikael was able to get Jack to open up. Jack tried beating around the bush as long as possible, saying how he had this weird obsession with 18 year old girls, that slowly turned into high school girls, which then became 13 year old girls. Mikael was in utter shock. Jack then started to get scared, they were cops after all. He begged Mikael not to tell anyone before taking off.
Over the next few weeks, Mikael did his best to get more information out of Jack but Jack refused to talk about it. Mikael knew there was only one way to get Jack to open up to him. It was nice to know that there was someone that shared his sick obsession with him and Mikael decided it was time to come clean as well.
Mikael told Jack that he wasn't disgusted by Jack and that he didn't judge him for what he liked. Mikael didn't tell him about Brazil, that was something he was gonna take to the grave but he told him that he fantasized about the same stuff. Mikael told him that he jerked off to porn sometimes, not actual child porn since Mikael had never gone onto any of those sites, being a cop and all, but he did have a folder full of pictures of girls that looked clearly under 18. He got the pictures from totally legit and legal sites, and wondered how they were even posted without getting taken down.
Most did get taken down, but that 1 or 2 day period between getting posted and getting taken down was when Mikael saved them to his computer. Jack was stunned but glad that someone finally understood him. Jack told him that was the reason he never wanted kids. He didn't trust himself enough not to act on his urges, especially when his daughter got older and started being more provocative.
When he told his wife about his desires, she instantly filed for divorce, calling him a pedophile. Jack had his own personal collection on his laptop which he jerked off too late at night when his wife had gone to bed. Just like Mikael, he had pictures of 13, 14, and 15 year old girls he had managed to find on the internet over the years. Ever since their confessions, Mikael and Jack tried to stay away from the topic, it was like they were both ashamed and didn't feel comfortable discussing it.
As the years went by, Jack and Mikael continued not to bring up the topic besides a conversation here or there while at the bar. Jack started to date and had a pretty serious relationship for a while but never got remarried. Meanwhile, Mikael finally felt ready to have kids and when he told Michelle she jumped on him hugging him like it was the first time she saw him.
When Mikael was 27, he and Michelle finally had a baby, Jamie. Unlike Jack, Mikael wasn't scared on acting on his urges; he wasn't attracted to girls that young, he liked the ones approaching their teen years. Jamie grew older and Mikael started to jerk off less and less to his secret stash of porn. He was a father now, with more responsibilities, he couldn't act like a 21 year old anymore. Jack got transferred to another department shortly after and Mikael started seeing less of him.
He would still get invited to his barbeques and parties, where they would catch up, but they weren't close friends. Jack and his girlfriend of 2 years broke up and Jack stayed single for a long time after that. Even though he would never admit it, Mikael figured that he was planning to propose sometime soon. As Jamie started growing older, Mikael didn't like bringing Michelle and Jamie around Jack. This was because of the company picnic one day in the summer, just months before Michelle got diagnosed.
Mikael, Michelle and Jamie were at the picnic as well as Jack. The other cops that Mikael worked with were there too and most of them brought their families. Everything was fine, Mikael was talking to Jack while Michelle was standing far away not to hear her husband talking. She was having a conversation with one of the other wives. Mikael and Jack were doing their usual thing, catching each other up on the other's life.
At one point, Jamie ran up to her dad and asked him for some money to buy some random crap, and Mikael gave her a few dollars. She hugged him around the waist, her face on his stomach and then ran off. As she ran off, Mikael looked at Jack and noticed his eyes were wandering a bit too much. It was clear he was checking out her ass and even though Mikael didn't say anything about it, it really pissed him off. After that incident, Mikael started paying more attention to Jack, and noticed that it wasn't just Jamie he looked at, but he stared a bit too long at every girl that walked past him. Maybe Jack was right; he really shouldn't be trusted with having kids.
If Mikael didn't want Michelle and Jamie around Jack anymore, his wish soon came true when Michelle got diagnosed with cancer. She was in very bad condition for most of her remaining months and Mikael didn't feel like going to stupid parties with his wife slowly dying in the hospital. At first, Jamie didn't understand what was happening to her mom but as the months went on, Jamie became more aware of the situation. She had never thought of death before then and now she was watching her mother slowly dying.
Weeks before Michelle passed away, Mikael didn't let Jamie into the hospital room to see her. Michelle was no longer herself, she looked like a skeleton at this point and even though Mikael didn't want to admit it to himself, she scared even him now. He could only imagine what it would do to Jamie to see her mom like that. Near THE END
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