My First Gay Encounter: A Journey of Self-Discovery and Forbidden Love

So the name is Vincent. I am a white male and for a lot of my life I was not interested in men. But I guess over time I got drawn to them. So I decided to take a chance and have fun with a guy that I did not know.
So my stats for you to know is at the time I was 20 and only weighed 130 lbs and stood at 5 foot 7 inches with a 6 inch cock. I had meet this girl on a website and to get into her pants I thought I would be nice to her
gay friend and maybe I would have a chance. If only I had known I was wrong. So I started talking to the guy his name was Josh. He was around my age maybe younger or older than me but not by much. Yeah he was a bigger guy than me but oh well.
So we started talking and we started talking about how i was bi-curious and how i had never been with a guy. Well it came up somehow on where we each lived. I found out he lived 30 min away. Well I had not had sex
in a long time. So we talked for a week. During that week when we talked I grew horny and wanted to try things so badly. So the day before we meet I told him things I wanted to do. Also told him things I fantasized about.
Like me wanting him to just sit there and for me to just fuck him and have his cock in my ass. Yes I was a virgin but my mind told me to type that to him. So the day came. I drove out to his place in my old beat up black dodge truck.
I arrived and he was waiting on the front porch at his apartment building. He was wearing a hoodie and some pajama pants. He got in and we went to the store and while we drove there and back we talked a little. I could tell we where both nervous and both horny as well.
Well we got back and I entered the building and his apartment. It was small with a kitchen to the left with some cabinets and a bathroom with a stand up shower in it that could fit two men in it. Also once you walked in front of you was a couch and small tv. Then to the left past the kitchen was a
small bedroom with a mattress on the floor. We sat on the couch after i took my hoodie off and my shoes off and talked. while we talked i grew hard while thinking about how i wanted to taste his cock for the first time. well he looked at at one point and asked want to see a porno. I
looked at him and told him yeah. Well he put the movie in and it started before i knew it we where near each other and before i knew it we where kissing a little. I grabbed his cock threw his pajama pants and stroked it. He grew really hard and he then grabbed mine through my jeans.
Before I knew it he was sucking my cock. I stopped him and told him I want to taste his. So I removed his pants and out poped his 6 inch cock. I stroked it and soon put his cock in my mouth. I sucked it a little.
He then stopped me after a min or two and said we should 69. I agreed and soon he was on top and we where both enjoying it the cock in each of our mouths. We then stopped and just sat there and talked while we waited to calm down a little. he then went into his bedroom and came out
with two dildos. both 9 inches long and one really firm and one really flimsy. I started teasing him and said at one point. There is no way you can stick that in my ass. He said I bet I can. Before I knew it I was in his bedroom on his full size bed naked with my little ass facing him.
He looked at my ass and said you have such a nice ass. he then grabbed the lube and was about to put some on my ass and I stopped him. I said let me fuck you first. He said ok. I asked him how do you want to do this since it is my first time. he goes let me get on my back. He got
on his back and I tried to enter him after lubing up both of us. But I could not get a good angle on him. I wish I could have. But I turned him over and fucked him doggy. When I entered him i was in heaven I wish I could have fucked him for days. But because of how tight he was and me fucking him
in the ass I cummed really fast. I told him I was sorry. But he said it was ok and that it happens. He then said it was my turn. So I got in doggy and he lubed up his cock and tried to push his cock in me right then and there. It hurt. I stopped him and ran to the bathroom because I had
to go the bathroom. After that I told him he could not fuck me in the ass because it was just uncomfortable. So he said that was ok but i saw the sadness in his eyes. I still wish i could have let him take my cherry that day. But after I got done in the bathroom we got in the shower and kissed and sucked
each other cocks and cummed in there together. So for the rest of the day we sucked each other cocks and that was about it. Some time that night I had told him I love you and I do not know why. I think it was a reaction to fucking him. He had heard me but i tried to say i did not say it. I had said it
because he was the first guy i had ever fucked or sucked. I did not mean it deeply just as a FWB type of love. When I left that night I had gone out a bought a 9 inch dildo hoping to train myself to use it. But 4 years later i still can not use it. Also I have not talked to Josh in the 4 years. After that
moment he grew to cligy and would not leave me alone and he also tried to claim me. He tried to date me and tried to break me up every chance he got. I think I would have still been his friend and explored more with him if we could have just been friends. If he would have allowed me to have a relationship
with women and let me sleep with them. I would have visited him when i could have on weekends or weekday nights and fucked him and made love to him. But sadly now I am getting married but I am happy I am getting married but I have a small vibrator now that i use from time to time on This link (myself.But) is not approved. Submit this link for approval still wish josh and I could be friends
and still wish i could explore with him. But only if he would understand we could only be friends and that is that. that I would be having a family soon and that I would be visiting him when i was horny and when we could have fun all by ourselves. Well I know this story is not the best but we all have to start somewhere. Josh I hope
you read this and hope we can talk and work this all out. If he had just not been clingy and also just talked to me and ot try to ruin my relationship we could have been good friends. I would have loved to have fucked him again and maybe let him break me in. Hell if we had talked more he might be fucking me now and this would have been a better story. Well hope to hear from him soon and if not oh well.