Gay College Students Dark Secret: A Tale of Coach Krisby's Abuse and Obsession BOY TOY For my own personal preferences, I would like to remain anonymous. I have agreed to tell all my secrets, but as of now, I am not comfortable revealing my identity. I guess I should tell you a little about myself, right? Okay, well, I’m a twenty-one-year-old man and I go to college for fashion design. I want to start my own clothing line for plus-size girls. I am five foot nine, Latino and Caucasian, I have brown hair, and…I’m gay. I think I first knew I was officially gay in the ninth grade. In middle school I was feminine, and everyone thought I was, but I kept denying it. For years, I lied to myself. I had probably five real girlfriends. All of them were madly in love with me, but I never was in love with them. In fact, I remember the day I knew I was gay, and that same day was the day I had my first gay sexual experience. I had seen the fliers around school for football tryouts and I decided to go, hoping it would make Dad proud and put some hair on my chest. I got there, and to my surprise, I was smaller than the older boys… much smaller. Every one of them was pushing six feet or taller and they all looked like they spent way too much time in the gym. And then there was Martin Luke, the guy with two first names. He was over six feet tall, caramel-skinned, and he had brown dreads that tapped his shoulders. He was the god of the football team, basketball team, wrestling team…all the teams. Every muscle on him bulged without him flexing. On that particular day, we were all in the locker room. The room smelled of nothing but stench and sweat…and we hadn’t even started working out yet. There were four aisles surrounded by lockers. The room looked as if a big blue monster had thrown up blue juice all over the place. The floor was gray with blue specks, the lockers were blue, the walls were painted dark blue and light blue, and the showers had blue tile on the floor. It was enough to make your brain hurt. …the next moment changed everything
