White Male's Journey of Self-Discovery and Forbidden Desires

** WARNING** This story has racial slang, if these word both white slang and black slang make you mad and stupid don’t read this story. People they are just words, Remember sticks and stones may brake your bones but names can never hurt you…. Unless you’re weak minded, then don’t read this.


I am white male 45+ and have always been a straight heterosexual in my life. I have been divorced two times and it was after my last divorce I knew being with women was not working out and not in my future. I always knew my dick was small and not even average for a white male. When hard it only grows to 5 inches; my last wife Roen called it my Dicklit, she said your Penis is bigger then a Clit, but it’s to small to be a dick, and no way is it near being a Cock.

(Then she left me for a black man and at the time that hurt but am happy now find out why).

On the day Roen walked out she throw a picture at me on the way out the door, it was of her new man stepping out of a hot shower; his soft but long black cock dangled almost halfway down his thy. In the pic it looked to be
a good 7inch’s of soft black an uncut man COCK.

I could see why Roen left me for that I found myself thinking if I was her I would want to suck on that too; hell I thought I‘d even leave me for that breeding stick. That was my first thought ever about another guys appendage I knew I was small but I didn‘t know how much fun holding a big cock could be.

That night while sleeping I had a dream, my first gay dream, and it was of me down on my knees sucking a black mans cock. In my dream I heard the bedroom door open and looked to see who was entering, it was my ex-wife Roen. I looked up at the guy I was giving head to and it was her black boyfriend Ragu. The guy in the picture she had tossed at me just a few hours ago; she was mad as hell screaming at him and cursing me as she walked toward us, there I was with the large purple brown mushroom head of his black cock just inside my lips, the foreskin was snapped back making the head on his shaft even bigger, almost to big to fit in my mouth. I Knelt there holding his over sized African balls that where so big they spilled out of both sides of my right hand as he slow fucked my face.
Roen would not stop screaming at us; then Ragu started screaming back at her, “this white boy of yours wanted to suck my cock, and he is going to keep doing it bitch”. As he screamed at her he grabbed the back of my head and shoved his long cock down my throat….all the way down to his balls just as Roen reached us. He forcefully throat fucked me, holding my head tightly to his crotch, that’s when Roen kicked me hard in my tiny balls.

She kicked me hard and fast three times calling me a short dicked sissy whore, and said I was trying to steal her man.

What she didn’t know until I fell over in pain was that I had bit off Ragu’s huge cock. Every time she hit my balls it forced me to bite deeper, and now there I was crying on the floor, an I couldn’t breath. That thick black cock was way down my throat and I couldn’t get it out… so I had to swallow it; I felt that long dark meat sliding slowly into my gut as I took a deep breath.

When I awoke from my dream I had a hard-on, and at my age a hard-on does not happen every morning, not only was my tiny dicklit hard, so hard it hurt, and I had cum soaked underwear, I had an orgasm in my sleep…well that had never happened before.

Had I come because I had bit off and swallowed the cock that took my wife from me? Or had I cum soaked sheets because I was kicked in the ball by my ex-wife for sucking her black mans cock? “I have always been a bit of a pain slut.” Maybe it was because I was sucking that huge black cock, and liking it so much that turned me on? Was it that I liked the thought of sucking a big black cock so much that I had an orgasm without anyone touching my tiny white dicklit?

I wasn’t sure but I was still so honey, I got out of bed, I went to my computer and for the first time searched for white men sucking black cocks and up popped hundreds of web sites’ that’s when I knew this must be the new expectable thing for white males. White guys like me with short dicklits, that can’t please or keep a woman in bed.

I thought after all black guys have been stealing are white women right under our noses for over 40 years now, longer in secret. So it only makes sense to succumb to the bigger male….and in the jungle (concrete or treed) the bigger males get the bitch’s… Yes it’s about time this white boys wakes up, its 2012 and a lot of white males just like me are finding the joy of holding a bigger cock in their hands. Enjoying life and feeling good about pleasing someone, and not always being told we don’t measure up, and by what am viewing right now black men get off on fucking white guys and am going to try it self..

Why should the white girls be the only ones getting a big cock in their mouth, and ass? I can be a bottom pussy boy for black men. Yes am willing to try it; this might just work out who needs a woman that will just up and leaves because your dick is to small?

I started thinking about all those large cum filled African balls, and those long dark cocks, surly they must need to unload that nut juice somewhere. So why not fuck a white guys pussy? After all it is white ass, and most white boys are like their women, spellbound, mesmerized, and awestruck once they see a black mans cock first hand. So why shouldn’t a well hung black guy get off fucking white guys. I know one thing if I had equipment like theirs I‘d fuck me as many bottom boys as I could find.

I viewed the list of links and opened the first site that clamed they had over five hundred soft white boys to choose from, I was shocked at what I saw, it was the first time I had viewed man on man porn and the site had hundreds of free short Mpegs, I started viewing them as I beat my tiny meat to some white guy sucking, and being ass and mouth fucked by a gang of five black Thugs. I shot off seeing that short dicked white guy getting face fucked, as two more black men double fucked his ass pussy, the whole time they used him they where calling him their little cracker bitch, which they then covered with their black bull-stick cream.

They all started laughing at him, and there was this guys standing by his face with the biggest cock I had seen so far shot off on his face, he said… “cracker and head cheese go together white boy, now eat my cum bitch.” I was still Jerking off to what I was seeing and those words gave me the best feeling orgasm I had in months I only wished I was the lucky white boy in that flick.

A few hours later I signed back on, searching the internet for more white men servicing black cocks and found a cuckold castration site full of Pics and stories, most where of short dicked white boys with their balls banded by their wife’s or girlfriends as they sucked a black mans cock.

The One story I loved the most had a white women cutting off her husbands nuts as a black guy was fucking her from behind, at

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