My Fathers Cock: A Ten Year Olds Awakening to Sex and Desire This happened about 16 years ago, when I was ten at the time. My first time was interesting, to say the least, but I only do because it was with my father, and I was so young. Although I remember a lot of it, there are still details that have become fuzzy, or forgotten, however there are still things that, even at that age become burnt into the mind forever. I will do my best to retell my first time. 
 
Close to my ninth birthday, my mother left. She would often say how her life sucked. I remember that every time when I was around her, she'd be complaining about this and that, and it all revolved around her. She would often degrade me in front of people, and in private. I was never allowed to be good, or achieve when she was around because it always had to be her who was better than everyone else. So, one day she left. No notice, or anything. In later years I learned from my father that she left to Texas to be with some guy she met online. He found out because the man dumped her and she tried to crawl back to my father, only to be rejected. He had found someone else by then. His son. 
 
I remember crying on my birthday, and most nights. I was young then and didn't understand what was going on, nor why I wasn't loved. That's how I felt, of course. Unloved, but he'd find ways to make it up to me for her. Gifts, and more time spent with him, even trips to places I wanted to go, but when she was around we couldn't. It was nice that we began to bond like that in the face of something negative, to build a more positive relationship with my father. That changed, however, something innocent became something more. 

One night, around June, I remember, my father, who was pretty average in height, about 5'10" and a slim build, though he did have some muscle from his work. I don't remember what he did then, only that one day he came home early and then three months later and a new apartment after he found another job. …but everything was about to change
